The Butterfly Wings

been meaning to switch to telkom multispeed since two months ago, but the customer service told me it’s better to wait until the last day of the month, because otherwise i would be charged for both multispeed and my current account. so i waited, and didn’t get the chance to call speedy back, and then [...]

biasanya gue upload foto-foto digital gue ke multiply, tapi hari ini pas baca-baca ulang blog gue ini, gue baru sadar kalo foto-foto di multiply banyak yang pecah! sebel deh.. kan jadi jelek banget. kalo cuma foto barang sih gapapa, tapi kalo foto muka orang, apalagi muka sendiri, kan jadi bete ngeliatnya. sebelnya lagi foto disitu [...]

i’m back to my post in batavia office.
too soon to jump up and down with glee,
but i’m definitely enjoying the fresh clean air!

and all they think is themselves
funny how when i’m feeling down, i find so little friends i can really talk to. because in the end, all they think about is themselves. when i seek encouragement and i need someone to talk to, all i get as a response is these so-called friends talking about themselves [...]

i had coffee stained my brand new coral sweater
HIX!

me :
(sambil baca epaper.kompas.com)
waaa coldstone diskon 50% lho..
person 1 :
tapi minimal 100 ribu tuh..
me :
oh iya ya? (belum baca terms and conditionnya)
wah musti pas pergi rame-rame ya..
person 2 :
wah asik asik diskon.. (sambil terus bahas diskon)

person 3 :
(langsung nyamber) es krim ya??
daagen hasz aja, kan diskon terus-terusan tuh..
me :
(pura-pura konsen sama layar laptop [...]

when faced with two choices :
1. make a complete robust database design that will eliminate redundancies, with the use of normalization and all.
2. allow redundancies to minimize the required joins when querying info out of the database.
i would, without thinking, definitely choose the first option. it’s not even an option, at least for me.
i know [...]

ih ko rasanya maleeeeees ngapa-ngapain ya.. *slap self*

this is, by far, the dullest of all the dull saturdays i’ve ever experienced
*yawning*

if you are given 50k IDR.
what would you do with it?
going to a movie?
lunching at the nearest pizza joint
- coz apparently other more exclusive restaurants cost more than 50k?
new books?
more makeup stuff, though you’ve got tons of them already?
accessories?
i’m sure there’s plenty of other things you could think of.
it takes only a couple of [...]

mr smiley had decided to run away from its comfy home at the back seat of my car. come back mr smiley!

walking into the mall high-spirited and excited to get some new nail polish. turned out that the mall were having a furniture expo, and to add it up, discounts on many household items. one that was surrounded by many people was carpet. it wasn’t a huge and fluffy carpet, it was just a thin yet [...]

akhirnya, selesai juga minggu pertama kembali bekerja, yang sekaligus worst week ever! belum tau apakah minggu depan bakal begini juga atau ga cih, rencana cuti sepertinya bakal batal!!!!

to christmas holiday. can’t wait!

you know it’s not right, but you do it anyway. it’s like eating chocolate when you’re on a diet!

you must know by now that indonesian people are good at “smiling no matter how you feel”. i am no exception. especially when put on the spot, and i have no time to think through of what’s going on or what i should say next ( sindroma lemot tingkat tinggi ). it isn’t easy to [...]

lagi-lagi gue migrasi..
seneng juga wordpress punya fitur export-import sehingga memungkinkan gue pindah-pindah tanpa kehilangan postingan lama gue heheh…
i’m in the mood for bitchin’

i have to say that indonesian people are judgmental. people infer what others say. they assume. probably that is the reason why most people are acting so (falsely) polite. we smile in front of others, we make excuses so that people think everything’s alright, so that noone’s (feelings) get hurt, or just to make a [...]

hari ini, topik bahasan breakfast club 90.4 fm adalah work to live / work for a living, dimana work to live diartikan kerja cuma sekedar demi gaji yang didapet tiap bulannya, sementara work for a living diartikan kerja dengan passionate, sepenuh hati saking cintanya sama kerjaan itu.
setelah beberapa saat diumumkan temporary resultnya yaitu 75% [...]

satu lagi berita… beneran ada yang REQUEST supaya gue dapet si kemungkinan terburuk ituh! rasanya  dan pengen bukannya gue ga niat, but i do have a life!

pagi-pagi, ga semangat males banget ngapa-ngapain (ga ada juga yang bisa diapa-apain). kira-kira 3 minggu disini, rasanya mood kerja sama sekali ga ada. ya itu juga, ga ada yang bisa dikerjain. reality bites! gue butuh liburan! ga perlu pergi kemana-mana deh.. santai-santai bobo di rumah juga dah cukup..

setelah cek email, seperti sudah diduga akhirnya [...]

saat mau ngomong sesuatu, tapi lupa, dan yang diucapin malah hal yang berbeda 180 derajat. atau saat susah banget merangkai kata-kata buat jelasin suatu hal, dan lagi, yang diomongin jadi berbeda 180 derajat dari yang dimaksud. jadi mempermalukan diri sendiri

run and hide!

i feel so silly all i want to do is crawl under the cover and hide forever, or at least until this feeling of me being so stupid, careless, and embarassing fades away? can i? *puppy eyes*

just when i least expected it, i received the news that my application was approved. after last night, i really didn’t expect to receive such kind of news. in fact, i don’t feel the excitement as before.. but it’s happening, and i’m going on the 23rd. such a short notice! i haven’t packed my bags, [...]

did the interview this morning, and simply to say, i flunked. more or less. didn’t do it very well, though i didn’t intended it like that at first, i was a bit dissapointed, because of course i had my hopes, and a bit angry, of myself, and several others. but right now, i’m just.. [...]

if everything goes as planned, i’ll be leaving for glasgow in a couple of days.. there are certainly pros and cons to the upcoming event.
cons
(-) i’ll start off with the worst of the worst… i had to stay so far away from my family, friends, and bf for [...]

it’s really frustrating to think about the one who got away! nope, i’m talking about a person. i’m talking about a chance, an open window, waiting for us to stumble over it and enter the dreamland. when something was offered to us in front of our nose, we don’t always realize the worth of the chance. [...]

this is really funny. i logged in to my yahoo email account, and there was a message in my inbox. the title was : Welcome to Friendster. suffice to say, i don’t use my yahoo account as my friendster login, and i’ve never intended to do so. apparently, there was someone ( or some people? [...]

i hate it when someone intentionally sneaks behind my back to see what on my pc, and read whatever it is i’m reading/writing. i totally hate it! i mean, it’s not polite at all to intently peeking at my screen when i’m writing or reading IMs or emails, or even worse,checking my bank account! and [...]

i believe everyone have their own preferences. whether it’s good or bad, no one should judge other people, or say bad things about others’ preferences. why?
reason #1 do they really think that their own preferences are truly the best? of course, that’s the case. else, they won’t say silly things about my preferences, right? [...]

have you taken a closer look at some of your friends these days? can you think of someone who always negates what you say, however positive it is, he/she will negate it and turn it into something bad? it’s just like debating, whatever you say, he/she will debate, although his/her saying contradicts his/her own saying [...]

a couple of minutes past my birthday, and i’m feeling melancholic. a bit ironic, huh? i was having the time of my life a couple of weeks earlier, and suddenly i just feel so bored and numb. i just sort of lost. it feels like something’s missing and i don’t know what it is. i [...]

as i entered a small shoe shop at ta earlier today, i couldn’t help but overheard a conversation between a bunch of teenage girls and a boy. girl a : eh ini kaya sepatu lo ya? girl b : ya nggak lah. punya gue lebih tinggi.
a few minutes later.. girl b : gue pengen [...]

it’s so easy to follow the unwritten norms, and trying to live by people’s standards and perspectives. at some points in our lives, we live only to get appreciation and respect by people around us, we try to satisfy others and make them see us as they expect us to be, or at other cases [...]